I fear the unnecessary emptiness.
복잡한 감정 속에서 삶의 사선 위에서
Among my complicated emotions, in the game of life-or-death,
괜시리 나는 무딘 척을 해
I pretend to be dulled to the feelings.
처음도 아닌데 익숙해질 법 한데
This isn’t the first time, I should be used to it.
숨기려 해도 그 게 안 돼
I try to hide it, but I can’t.

♫ Now playing Flower Path – Sejeong ♫

To raise a single flower
How much rain fell in your eyes?

Oh rewind,
the more I think back, the more I’m sorry
So I won’t give up
You gave up your youthful and beautiful season
Look at me, I have bloomed prettily
Even if I fall to the ground
I will make you walk only on flower paths

♫ Now playing Lost – BTS ♫

I’m still standing here with my eyes closed
Lost between the deserts and oceans
I’m still wandering
Where should I go yeah
I didn’t know there were this many
Paths I can’t go and paths I can’t take
I never felt this way before
Am I becoming an adult?
This is too hard, is this path right for me
I am confused

Lost my way
No matter how much I wander
I want to believe in my path

♫ Now playing STAND UP – BASICK (FEAT. MAMAMOO) ♫

488249.jpgWake up, wake up
You just dream all your life
You’re on the ground, I’m up in space
Flying, flying
My end of my twenties are over
The sun rises every day as a meaning of hope
My eyes are so sharp, even steel can get cut
I’m looking out even farther ahead
Fill up the youth in your eyes
Just know that most people won’t understand you
But after you fulfill your goals, they can’t control you
You get frustrated by your unclear future
You think it’s already too late
But don’t ever let go of your dreams
Even with your worries, you’re future is bright
Imagine, from your mouth that only let out smoke
A new promise
Let out a loud scream
I told you, we’re all going to space

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Day 30: your all time favorite K-Pop song

EXO- Don’t Go

The small fluttering of your wings seemed like it was telling me to follow you
The sad eyes and tacit stories in your heart that night in which the whirlwind was raging

I was mesmerized by the mysterious you and stared at you and had my one soul stolen
Because I am completely drunk at your movements, I even forgot how to breathe
Like a waltz, I sit lightly and can’t take my eyes off of you
My eyes naturally follow you every time you walk

Guide me yeah take me together with you to the place where you live
Oh even if the world ends, I’ll follow from behind you so please don’t go out of my sight
Even when the morning comes, don’t disappear oh
This walk that I’m dreaming
You’re my only beautiful butterfly

Wherever you came from, or wherever you’re going, up until now you always kindly greet me
A steep climb, the cliffs that cut off, don’t worry because there is no place to be afraid of

Your elegant figure oh I fall for it many times
Like this love, without even me knowing, comes and finds me unexpectedly
Like a waltz, I sit lightly and can’t take my eyes off of you
My eyes naturally follow you every time you walk

Guide me yeah take me together with you to the place where you live
Oh even if the world ends, I’ll follow from behind you so please don’t go out of my sight
Even when the morning comes, don’t disappear oh
This walk that I’m dreaming
You’re my only beautiful butterfly

Even if we wander in unfamiliar places, even if we get lost
I’ll follow my heart that’s more honest than anyone else’s
Because I can’t resist your quiet movements that strike me, and your sharp and soft gaze

Take me yeah take me together with you to the place where you live
Oh even if the world ends, I’ll follow you
Oh no don’t go out of my sight
Even when the morning comes, don’t disappear oh
A small wave of your hand makes a whirlwind strike in my heart

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Day 22: a funny song

SNSD- I Got A Boy

The song itself isn’t funny, but on youtubers react to kpop and they were reacting to I Got A Boy and theres a lyric that goes “I got a boy meotjin I got a boy chakan” which translates to “I got a boy a cool one, I got a boy a kind one” but I guess one of the guys thought he heard “I got a boy on my chin” which I thought was funny at the time but now I can’t get that out of my head every time I hear this song.

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♫ Now playing The Last – Agust D ♫

Agust-D-Agust-D

On the other side of the famous idol rapper
Stands my weak self, it’s quite dangerous
Depression, OCD, they keep coming back again from time to time
Hell no perhaps that might be my true self
Damn huh feeling estranged in reality
The conflict with ideal, my head hurts
Around the age of 18, socio-phobia developed in me
Right, that was when my mind was gradually polluted

At times I’m scared of myself too,
Self hated and thanks to the depression that takes over me
Min Yoongi is dead already (I’m dead)
Comparing my dead passion with others, it’s now a part of my daily life

On the first visit to psychiatric ward, my parents came up with me
We listened to the consultation together, my parents said they don’t truly understand me
I don’t understand myself well either, then who would understand?
Friend? Or you? Nobody knows me well

The doctor asks me
I answered without any hesitation that I have done

Habitual saying uh I don’t give a shit I don’t give a fuck
All those words uh those words are said to hide my weak self
Those days I wish I could erase
Right, that performance day which I don’t remember very well
The day I confronted myself when I hid inside the toilet because I was scared of people

That time I, that time I
I thought success will make everything fine
But you see, but you see
As time goes by, I feel like I’m turning into a monster

I’ve exchanged my youth for success, and that monster demands for more wealth
At times it puts a collar on my neck to ruin and swallow me with greed
Some try to shut my mouth and say I should swallow both good and evil
I don’t want it they want me to leave this hill

shit shit I got it so stop it
I’m the root of all this so I’ll stop myself
If my misfortune is your happiness, I’ll happily stay unfortunate
If I’m the figure of hate, I’ll get on the guillotine

The things I’ve imaged about turns into reality
My childhood dreams are in front of my eyes
The night when I performed in front of 2 audience
Now Tokyo Dome is right in front my nose
My one and only life, I can easily live it passionately than any other
my fan my hommie my fam I hope you don’t worry because I’m really okay now damn

I’ve denied my nature many times
My address is idol and I won’t deny
The anguish that dug into my mind countless times
There’s no answer at the end of wandering

My pride which I thought I had given away has turned into self-respect
My fans, keep your head high with pride because who can do it like me uh

Seiko, Rolex, AX (hall) and Gymnastic (stadium)
The heads of thousands nodding to my hand gesture
Show me the money, it’s not that I couldn’t but I didn’t shit
Selling ourselves or not, you all say we couldn’t do it but we didn’t shit
The root of my creativity has tasted the sweet, bitter and shit of this world
Those days when I laid down to sleep on the toilet floor, it’s all memories now uh they’re now memories
My shoulder which shattered thanks to the accident I met during my part time job
The debut which I clung as if it was my life
Who do you think your fool by pretending you’ve gone through all the miseries

Seiko, Rolex, AX (hall) and Gymnastic (stadium)
The heads of thousands nodding to my hand gesture
Sorrow created me uh look at me closely uh
Selling ourselves or not you all say we couldn’t do it but we didn’t shit

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Day 19: a song that reminds you of you

B.A.P- With You

I don’t really understand what ‘reminds you of you’ means but when I listen to With You, all the meaning of the lyrics that are sang to us, I want to sing it back to BAP.
I’ve been a BABY long enough to have gone through their ups and downs. And when I hear the lyrics
You protected me in this sad darkness
When you smiled brightly
Because of you, I’m here
I will protect all of you
Forever With You (With You With You With You)

I’ll be by your side until always
Forever With You (With You With You With You)
You’re not alone
Hold my hand
I’ll be with you”
I remember that I am a BABY and that I will always be besides BAP like I have all these years. Forever with them.

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